I know it seems somewhat cliche’ to start talking about the importance of family when the holidays start rolling around, but that’s exactly what is on my mind.
Not only are Thanksgiving, Christmas and then New Years going on during this time of year, but my mom, my sis, and my dad also have their birthdays around this time too, so there has always been even more family togetherness going on during the holidays for me.
It will greatly embarrass my mom for me to blow the whistle on our ‘perfect family’ cover by leaking out this top secret information… but I must admit my little family is a bit damaged and broken at best. I suppose this just very well may be the case for most families these days considering society, the world at large, and human nature being what they are. But we always try to cover it up to appear ‘normal’ (whatever that is). Maybe I should be a more private person and not air all of my dirty laundry out in public for all the world to see, but I’ve never been one for trying to portray an ‘image.’ What is the use in that? In order to connect on any real level with others out there in the world, you need to be real. I do however, need to be respectful of my family’s privacy and be careful not to share all of their dirty little secrets while I’m sharing my own.
Not that we really have any of those, it’s not like we have a mass murderer in the family that we are trying to hide (of course I’d say this even if we did though wouldn’t I? ). But even despite our bit of dysfunction, there is tons and tons of love here and I wouldn’t want any other people as my family other than this crazy lot I’ve been thrown in with.
But all joking aside, I suppose that apart from all the birthdays and the holidays going on, the reason family is so much on my mind is because I am realizing more and more every day just how very fragile and precious life is, and our dear families and loved ones are at the very heart of it all. My aunt passed away a few days ago (on my mom’s birthday) and although I wasn’t particularly close with her, she was my family and I loved her, my heart is breaking for my cousins and my uncle right now. In having my dad pass away just a year ago this past June, that sense of loss is still very much a fresh wound for me too. It would have been his 84th birthday next week. Gosh I miss him. We really do need to cherish the time we have with our precious families because they could be taken away from us in an instant.
My mom can really get under my skin like no other, and can frustrate the ever lovin’ crap outta me. But that being said, I can’t even begin to tell you how much I love her, how truly grateful I am to have her as my mom (mistakes in raising me and all), how very much I appreciate everything she is and has done for me, and… how utterly lost I would be without her.
Try and cherish your family no matter what your family situation is. I’m sure there are likely many families out there who are in very difficult circumstances, my own brother is estranged from our family at the moment because of his actions and behavior, but in the meantime I will still love him from afar, pray for him, and hope that one day things will be better. And I will cherish the other precious ones in my family that I still do have…