I woke up with so much on my mind this morning and feeling so completely overwhelmed by everything I have going on and everything I have to do. I was laying there trying to sort it all out in my head and was just going around and around in endless circles.
I have always had a great ability to see the bright side of things and to have hope and peace of mind even through difficult times, but it’s a process. And there are various stages along the way in that process that bring me to that place.
Sometimes the process takes a bit longer than other times.
And sometimes even when I’ve reached my little epiphany and come to that place, I still have to fight to keep it going or it slips through my grasp when the circumstances continue to overwhelm.
This morning it was a matter of stepping outside of myself. To stop focusing on all the stuff I’m trying to balance, and just lay it all down. Surrender. (Breathe) Not giving up, but surrendering to the fact that I can’t do it all, I can’t figure it all out. And I don’t have to.
I spent a few minutes praying about everything, and then let it all go. Release. (Breathe) Afterward I sat and listened to some amazing praise and worship music for about 2 hours. Talk about stepping outside of yourself…
Gradually, it all melted away. All the worry, the fears, the frustrations. Everything will be okay. It really will. Assurance. (Breathe) And with that I slowly began realizing again how truly grateful I am for my life. And everything in it. There’s nothing quite like a good dose of feeling grateful to snap you out of your stress and self pity. Gosh, look at it… Life. It really is an amazing gift. And no matter what I’ve got going on, I am still so very blessed and fortunate. For real.
And now instead of looking inward and focusing on myself and all that I’ve got going on, I find that I’m looking outward, at the other precious people in my life and out there in the world. And how I can be a source of love and light to them.
Stepping outside of myself…