Shadows and Light

I woke up the other morning with bright light pouring in through my bedroom windows.  After a night of restless sleep, I had slept in a bit late, so the morning sun had well risen in the sky and was shining brightly.

As I sat up in bed I noticed my shadow reflected upon the wall from the light coming in through the window.  I sat there for the longest time looking at it, thinking about how “shadowed” my heart feels right now.  And looking at my dark image there, I let the darkness seep inside of me too.  I let myself go to that dreadful place where there is no light, no hope, deep heartache, alone-ness.  I didn’t like it there.  And it’s not me, for in my truest heart I am a child of the Light.  Of Joy and of Hope.

That is why this is such a difficult place for me to be in.  I don’t belong here, in this sad place.  Except I can’t deny this is where I am right now, and I have to allow myself to feel.  I can’t pretend that I don’t hurt.

But… the thing about shadows is… they are only made possible because of the light, a shadow can’t exist without the light.  So if there is a shadow, there is most assuredly also light.

 

A contrast of varied emotions fill my heart as I look at this photo of my shadowed reflection there upon the wall.  Feelings of sadness, heartache, and loss, but also of hope ~ for light is surely still shining upon me in this darkness to even be casting this shadow.  I have only to turn around to see it.  Instead of looking at my shadow, I will turn and face the toward the Light.

 

And just look at what beautiful, glorious light is on the other side.  This was the sky this morning…

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“No matter how deep the darkness, a light shines within.” – Kingdom Hearts