I’m on my way to the doctor this morning. Apparently I’ve worked myself into a bit of a health issue here by not managing my stress well enough, in addition to not taking care of myself by eating well. At least this is my diagnoses. I’ve been experiencing heart palpitations for the past week. I blame that blasted garage sale that I’ve been gearing up for and which finally came to a head last weekend. That thing had been hanging over me like a dark cloud for the past year. I should be awash with relief right now instead of sitting here with heart palpitations. Ugh.
So now I have to go to the doctor. I don’t really care for most doctors, it seems all they want to do is cut you open or medicate you, and I’m not so keen on either. Not to mention I don’t have any health insurance at the moment so I’m sure it’s going to cost me a pretty penny, and my pennies are ever so dwindling over here. I’m angry with myself for not taking better care of my health. I know all the proper ways of doing so, and I do make an effort, but I think my brain gets in the way sometimes, darn thing is always thinking an’ stuff. 😉 But my brain can’t take all the blame, I have had quite a number of external circumstances going on here that have been very difficult to deal with.
I’m just hoping they don’t find anything seriously wrong with me today. I reeeally don’t need to add health problems to my plate. I’m sure they’ll want to put me on some sort of blood pressure meds as it’s been quite high whenever I’ve checked it. Twice now I’ve avoided having to go on medications for blood pressure by simply modifying my lifestyle a bit, and I hope that will be the case again, but I’m feeling tempted to take the meds in the meantime while I work on making things more manageable, because these darn palpitations are freaking scary. It happens mostly at night when I’m going to bed, making it difficult to sleep, and oh how I do love my sleep. I try deep breathing and douse myself in lavender oils, and that helps a little, but not enough.
Well I better get a move on here and try to fix up this drowsy-looking face of mine, don’t want the doc to think I’m worse off than I really am by showing up with my “just crawled out of bed look.” 😉 Wish me luck and please do send some healing thoughts and prayers my way.
And while you do, here’s a pretty butterfly to look at…
I snapped this the other day and was so pleased to finally see a Monarch in my garden. ♥
Peace and love…