It’s my baby girl’s birthday tomorrow and I’ve got all things Rachael on my mind. I’ve spent the last several days reminiscing over the past 22 years and my mind is filled with so many precious memories of my daughter and I together.
Yesterday after a bit of searching through old boxes of mementos, I found the journal I kept while I was pregnant that also went through her first year. I spent some time reading over it and I laughed and I cried, my heart was overwhelmed with love, and with joy, and with gratitude. I’m so glad I kept a journal of it all.
It’s hard to describe the profound love I have for her, sometimes words just aren’t enough. Fewer things are more precious to me in this world than my daughter, and it is in being her Mom that my life has found the most meaning so far.
One of the memories that is foremost on my mind today (the one that prompted this post’s title) is of the two of us dancing together at a family wedding several years ago to the song “You and Me” by Lifehouse. I loved that song at the time and when it began playing I asked my (now ex) husband to dance to it with me, but he refused (there is a long and hurtful story behind the reason for that that I won’t go into right now), so I turned to my daughter and asked her. Something you should know is that my daughter was (is) extremely shy so it was a pretty big deal for her to get out there and dance with me. But in knowing how much I loved the song (and I think in also seeing and wanting to alleviate my hurt at being rejected by her dad) , she put away her insecurities and danced with me. We twirled around happily together on the the dance floor, albeit awkwardly, and had a wonderful time. We hadn’t danced like that together since she was a little girl. It really meant a lot to me.
On a Mother’s Day sometime afterward, she put together a cover of herself singing that song and gave it to me as a gift. She later posted it on her YouTube channel and this is it…
It’s not one of her best vocals, but I can’t even tell you how precious the sweet sound of my baby girl’s singing is to me.
Thanks so much for letting me share this treasured memory with you. Since beginning my blog back in November of 2011, I’ve not only mentioned her numerous times in various posts along the way, but have also written specific posts about my daughter. In the spirit of her birthday I’d like to mention those again… When she turned 20, I wrote a post about her called Beautiful Things Come in Twenties where I shared a ton of photos along with twenty of the things I love about her, and then another one Minnesota’s Got Talent where I shared (bragged) about her creativity and artistic talent.
Well, there’s lots to do to get ready for the special day tomorrow, and I’m off to bake her birthday cake. She wants a tie dye one (truly a girl after my own heart), but I’ve never made a tie dye cake before, so hopefully it doesn’t end up a complete fail. Wish me luck!
Peace & Love…