Brain Surgery

Posted on January 31, 2017 | 36 Comments

I’ve been giving a lot of thought lately as to what career path I should take, and last night I had a dream that I was performing brain surgery.  Apparently, I had become a neurosurgeon?   But I had no clue what I was doing and faked my way through the whole thing.  It felt so wrong.  I was so happy and relieved afterward that the guy was okay that I held his face in my hands and cried.  Even though it all turned out okay, I think it’s safe to say that there’s no future for me in neurosurgery.

Other things happened in the dream too that give me cause to ponder and reflect on, but what I come away with in the end, is that I should do something that feels authentic to me.  Something that I am equipped for and gifted at – unlike brain surgery.  There’s a no-brainer.   😉

Ever since my divorce back in 2011, I’ve been wondering what I should do with my life.  Thankfully, I’ve had an income from my divorce settlement, so I’ve been able to take the time to try and figure that out.  But the interesting thing is…  that while I’ve been wondering what I should do with my life, I’ve realized that I’ve already been doing it all along.  Living each day, being open, listening.  And I’m so grateful for all of the experiences that I’ve had over these past 6 years – even the sad ones, because I’ve grown so much through it all.  But the time is nearing that my settlement will go down to an amount that is no longer sufficient to support me financially, so I will need to find a job.  It’s exciting and daunting at the same time, and I’ve been thinking a lot about what to do.  What to do, what to do?  I might need brain surgery after thinking so hard trying to figure it out.

A few of you know, but I haven’t shared here publicly yet about the total knee replacement surgery I underwent this past September.  The recovery has been really slow, gosh what an ordeal it’s been for me, like seriously, wow, but the surgery went very smoothly and I haven’t had any complications, so for that I am truly grateful.  I’m scheduled to have my second knee replaced at the end of February, and my hope is that once I’ve recovered, I will have more job opportunities available to me with two fully functioning knees.  The sky is the limit really, and I’m completely open.

Well, open unless it includes performing brain surgery.  😉

But hey, maybe the meaning of my dream was more about how I can do anything – even brain surgery.

 

 

 

✿~Peace & Love~✿

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36 responses to “Brain Surgery”

  1. Writing to Freedom | January 31, 2017 at 2:00 pm | Reply

    Hi Julie. I hope the second knee surgery goes well and you can be active for fun and work. Living gratefully, being open and listening sounds like a great way to explore what’s next. I need to figure out income and work too!

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  2. aussiebirder | January 31, 2017 at 3:45 pm | Reply

    Thanks for sharing Jewels, it was encouraging to read your open hearted honesty😊 I am in a similar situation work wise, looking for new job opportunities.

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  3. Val Boyko | January 31, 2017 at 3:47 pm | Reply

    Good luck with surgery, activity and the end of pain Julie! This sounds like a good time to reflect and journal on what you are passionate about and the gifts that you can bring to the world. xo

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    • Jewels | January 31, 2017 at 4:33 pm | Reply

      Thanks so much, Val, I’m really looking forward to the end of pain.
      Yes, it is the perfect time and I’ve been doing just that and discovering all sorts of potential paths to explore. 🙂
      xo

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  4. joey | January 31, 2017 at 5:23 pm | Reply

    Two good knees are probably helpful for a running head start 🙂
    I’d say interview as much as you can, and like so many things, when the right job appears, you’ll feel it.
    I took your dream to a political realm, where I imagine you perform brain surgery better than some people govern, and of course, you look pretty while you pretend to know what you’re doing.

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    • Jewels | January 31, 2017 at 7:00 pm | Reply

      Except, from what they tell me, you’re not suppose to ‘run’ with knee replacements. 😉
      It may be naive of me, but I’m expecting the right job to just sort of fall into my lap when the time comes. ‘Normal’ recovery time for a knee replacement is 10-12 weeks, but can take up to 6 months to a year (my first one still hasn’t healed up completely), so I probably won’t be starting any serious job hunting until maybe late summer/early fall. But I am thinking a lot about what I think I might like to do. I’d really enjoy something that involves working with kids and being out in nature.
      I love where you took my dream haha! 🙂

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      • joey | January 31, 2017 at 9:14 pm |

        Well then do not RUN! Aaaaah!
        I believe the right job does come along and fall into your lap, too. (Mine have, several times) I truly think you should go back to working with kids. You so often speak fondly of it.

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  5. Eliza Waters | January 31, 2017 at 5:43 pm | Reply

    Interesting dream! I wonder if it somehow surfaced out of a thought/comment like, “This isn’t brain surgery, after all.” I like your take, what you choose to do should be simple, straightforward and authentic, and you’ll be standing on your own two feet (knees)! You can do it, yes you can. 🙂

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    • Jewels | January 31, 2017 at 7:12 pm | Reply

      Funny, that phrase did cross my mind while I was writing this, Eliza. 🙂
      It was such a vivid dream. I don’t think it was even anything to do with my trying to find a career path, there were so many other things also happening in the dream, but it does tie in with it. Authenticity is key for me, and I’d really like a job that fits who I am, not just something to earn an income, ya know?

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  6. loisajay | January 31, 2017 at 6:46 pm | Reply

    Imagine if you could perform knee surgery and fix your knee up super quick! Find something you really love doing, Julie. I know people say love your work and it is not work, but find out what interests you and look there. Pay is important but not as much as getting up each day to look forward to going to work and enjoying the people and the job. Good luck in your surgery.

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    • Jewels | January 31, 2017 at 7:24 pm | Reply

      Oh gosh Lois imagine that?! I’ll let you in on a little secret, I’ve actually been trying to heal my knees myself for many years – not exactly by performing surgery though. But I finally let go and decided to become part bionic instead. 😉
      I’m SO with you on what you say about finding something I really love, and the pay not being the most important thing. In fact, I wish needing pay was completely taken out of the equation – most of the things I’d love to do aren’t things I can make a living on. But who knows… maybe something will come along…
      Thanks Lois ❤

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  7. Inese Poga Art plus Life | January 31, 2017 at 9:16 pm | Reply

    I hope the second surgery goes well and the recovery is smooth. I know some people who had both knees replaced, and they are completely fine. Just recover and live nicely because when we are healthy everything else is fine. https://inesepogalifeschool.com/

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    • Jewels | February 1, 2017 at 9:15 am | Reply

      Thanks so much, I hope so too. Both of my siblings have had their knees replaced as well and are so happy they did, so I’m hoping I’ll feel the same way when it’s all said and done. You’re right – having good health makes a big difference in the quality of our lives. 🙂

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  8. derrickjknight | February 1, 2017 at 8:51 am | Reply

    I feel for you with the knees and hope all will be well

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  9. scifihammy | February 5, 2017 at 12:49 pm | Reply

    Wishing you all the best for your second op. Then you’ll be up and running!
    I’m sure, that with the time you’ve had to heal, and your positive attitude, you will find yourself on an exciting journey to further independence. Good Luck. 🙂

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  10. forgottenmeadows | February 5, 2017 at 1:03 pm | Reply

    Thank you for sharing my friend, sorry you had to go through it all but am so glad your strength continues to shine…All the best to you and hope new and exciting opportunities that you love come your way! ❤ ❤

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  11. Jewels | February 6, 2017 at 8:57 am | Reply

    Thank you, Neha! ❤

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  12. lorriebowden | February 6, 2017 at 3:45 pm | Reply

    Wow, Julie! Congrats on the knee surgery and best of luck with the next one! I hear they are so difficult!
    I think I just loved what you said…that you have been doing it all along! I think the same realization came to me within the past year…but it doesn’t necessarily pay the bills :/
    I wish you all the best…and I think that your dream is very telling…I do think the sky’s the limit…and go for it!! We need to have the courage to do what is in our souls to do. I’ve no doubt that if you don’t already know what that is…that you will know soon!
    Blessitude ❤

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    • Jewels | February 7, 2017 at 11:11 am | Reply

      Thanks Lorrie! It’s been a long road recovery-wise with this first knee, but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. And even though I feel a little more nervous about having the second knee done (because now I know all that it entails), I’m also looking forward to it because I know that in the end it will greatly improve my quality of life.
      I know what you mean when you say “it doesn’t necessarily pay the bills.” And most of the jobs I’d like to do are more of volunteer types of jobs. But I’m confident that the right thing will come along when the time is right. Thank you so much for your wonderfully encouraging words! ❤

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