So, you guys know how I said that I haven’t been feeling very wordy lately? Well, I think that is about to change today…
Don’t you miss the good old days when I first started this blog when I used to actually ‘ramble’ on ‘Ramblings’ from Jewels? Or maybe you don’t haha!
Life is ever-evolving and I just try to go with the flow of whatever I’m feeling or thinking, or not. One thing I always want this space to be is one of hope and joy and beauty. I always want the energy I send out into the world through my blog, to be of benefit to others in some way, so I’m selective sometimes about what I choose to share.
When I write my poetry – or whatever you call it, I usually like to use the least amount of words to try to convey the deeper feelings and meanings, and my aim is to always be authentic and true to myself. When I’m feeling despair or sadness, I tend to hold back sharing because I don’t want that emotion to trickle down onto to anyone else. But sometimes if the words are still beautiful I might share.
But anyway, getting to the point… Today I’m feeling very wordy and not feeling like being particularly careful about what I have to say. So here I go…
I had an old acquaintance message me this morning on Facebook asking how I’m doing. It was very nice of her to check in. However, she happened to catch me just as I had come back into the house after going out to investigate what the trash/debris was that I saw out on my side-yard from my kitchen window. Do you guys want to know what it was? Well, I’m going to tell you anyways… it was a pair of soiled men’s briefs along with a huge wad of gas station paper towels all covered in feces. Yep.
Well, hey, accidents happen, right? I can’t think too harshly toward the person who left it there, right? I should probably feel sorry for them, right? I mean, it’s no pleasant thing to shit yourself, poor guy, right? But when you add it to everything else that’s been going on lately – and there’s been a lot, mind you, that’s been going on around here, it set off a chain of rambling to this poor unsuspecting acquaintance who was just checking in to ask “How’s life been treating you?” Well, like shit, actually, and quite literally, at the moment ha!
Yesterday, I placed an online order for my annuals and some of my herbs and veggies for my garden. I’m so thankful for the garden centers offering curbside pick-up. But it was hard, I had to let go and release of bit control, in not being the one to individually pick out each plant myself – and there were some scraggly and lesser quality plants that they had selected. But I will give them the TLC I give all of my garden and will hopefully nurse them back to good health. But I only mention that to tell you about what I discovered when I went out to my car to head out to pick up my order… Someone had broken into my car. And they had rifled through the glove-box and then left it open, so my car battery was dead. Nice. Thankfully, a good friend who lives nearby was able to come over and give me a jump. The only funny part is that all they stole were some old CD’s out of my center console that were Christian Punk Rock music from like the 90’s haha! My daughter used to listen to them in the car when she was in like 6th grade. She’s 28. Yeah, I don’t know why those were still in my car…? But haha thieves, have fun with those CD’s, I’m sure they’re worth a lot. Not. I’m just glad they didn’t find the stash of quarters I have hidden in a ‘secret’ compartment – there’s like 10 whole dollars in there!
The day before yesterday, I went down to my basement to get something and discovered the floor all around my washer and dryer covered in 2 inches of thick, gooey liquid. Apparently, our giant industrial-sized jug of liquid laundry detergent had somehow fallen off the edge of the dryer and exploded all over onto the floor. What a sticky, icky mess! Not easy to clean up. At all. Luckily we had some dirty laundry in the clothes hamper down there that we could use to sop it up with. But each load had to be run through the wash cycle 3 – 4 times to get all the detergent out and it still reeks of detergent. It makes me wonder how ‘clean’ laundry really actually gets…
A few days before that, I was sitting up in my room having my morning coffee when I heard a noise below my window, like a crackling. When I looked out I saw a guy taking off on his bike with a huge handful of branches from my rhododendron. And when I went out to check on it I found a GAPING hole right smack in the middle of my bush. Remember that ‘rather unsightly hole’ I mentioned in my last post? Well, you don’t want to see it now – completely butchered. Couldn’t the guy had taken some from one of the sides, like, just wow dude. I was super pissed! I planted that shrub for my parents 20+ years ago. It was especially disheartening for me because I’ve been waiting sooooo long for the blooming things to return, like it was as if my soul depended on it, and then someone comes along and destroys the one thing in my yard that’s blooming. Thankfully, there are more blooming things now – my lilacs are just about to bloom, and it’s only the beginning of the season of blooming things. I’m thinking I might hang some sort of shiny bauble or maybe hang some sweet sounding little chimes to help pretty-up and fill that gaping hole.
This rambling is getting pretty long. If you’re still reading, I appreciate you ‘listening.’
You may have noticed that I haven’t even mentioned anything that is going on that is related to COVID-19. Ugh, I hate even typing it. Since it all began, I have purposely not wanted to give it any space on my blog and purposely haven’t shared about any of the ways it has affected my life. I don’t know, like as a protest against it or something? Not that that makes any sense whatsoever. I guess I figure there’s already plenty of stuff about it everywhere else and I’d rather have my blog be a place to get away from it for a moment. But I know it helps people to talk about it too. Ugh, I don’t know.
I will share that I lost my job back in the beginning of April. It was supposed to just be a furlough, but they decided to let me and around 100 other county employees go instead. I can’t tell you how sad I was, I really liked my job. Thankfully, I am being financially provided for temporarily – that was touch and go for a while though, very stressful. And I know I’m not alone in that.
I’ve been through a wide range of emotions and I don’t know what tomorrow will bring, but at the end of it all, the emotion I feel the most right now is gratitude.
I may have poopie pants on my lawn, thieves breaking into my car, a dead battery, butchered shrubs, gooey liquid all over the floor, and no job, but…
Me and mine are safe and healthy, and that’s all that really matters.
I hope you and yours are too.
Thanks for letting me ramble today, I told you I was feeling wordy. I sincerely appreciate you all.
Flower for your thoughts…
✿~Peace & Love~✿