I woke up the other morning with bright light pouring in through my bedroom windows. After a night of restless sleep, I had slept in a bit late, so the morning sun had well risen in the sky and was shining brightly.
As I sat up in bed I noticed my shadow reflected upon the wall from the light coming in through the window. I sat there for the longest time looking at it, thinking about how “shadowed” my heart feels right now. And looking at my dark image there, I let the darkness seep inside of me too. I let myself go to that dreadful place where there is no light, no hope, deep heartache, alone-ness. I didn’t like it there. And it’s not me, for in my truest heart I am a child of the Light. Of Joy and of Hope.
That is why this is such a difficult place for me to be in. I don’t belong here, in this sad place. Except I can’t deny this is where I am right now, and I have to allow myself to feel. I can’t pretend that I don’t hurt.
But… the thing about shadows is… they are only made possible because of the light, a shadow can’t exist without the light. So if there is a shadow, there is most assuredly also light.
A contrast of varied emotions fill my heart as I look at this photo of my shadowed reflection there upon the wall. Feelings of sadness, heartache, and loss, but also of hope ~ for light is surely still shining upon me in this darkness to even be casting this shadow. I have only to turn around to see it. Instead of looking at my shadow, I will turn and face the toward the Light.
And just look at what beautiful, glorious light is on the other side. This was the sky this morning…
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“No matter how deep the darkness, a light shines within.” – Kingdom Hearts
Ramblings From Jewels 